I know the language was a little graphic, but too often people don’t think about the experience from all perspectives. I for one, worry about the health risks she is exposed to, especially if she has little ones to care for. Her willingness to fight in the trenches is amazing and I feel shows true inner strength. Right now, she is handling her business the way she feels it needs to be handled.
But I also know what that kind of traffic can do in the long run to someone’s spirit. Once the spirit is broken, that is when a woman becomes vulnerable to a host of self destructive behaviors’. For some, its substance abuse, for others it is a deep seated self loathing that permeates every pore of a woman’s body. By the time this happens, those that contributed have moved on to the next BBBJ Queen. She is left alone.
Clients have no idea the long term ramifications of this industry on every aspect of an SP, and it’s mainly the negative that lingers and is near impossible to eradicate. I have spent years working with women just like Eve, and every one of them, no exceptions, went thru the same process at some point.
The day of internal reckoning will come, and she will remember this time with mixed emotions. It will be remembered fondly as the time she took control and fixed things. Then the memories of the clients that were good to her and made her feel human, accepted. Next she will remember the feelings that the faceless, those that she has had to block out, left her with. The feelings of being used, of being disposable will come with time. I have yet to meet an SP that didn’t have this cross their hearts at one time or another, and unless they have an incredible support system it will remain and tarnish every relationship they will ever get involved in, regardless of how healthy it is.
I get tired of this business being so one sided. The only people that truly understand what SP’s go thru are other SP’s and those that are involved with them on an emotionally intimate basis. Clients have no clue what this business can do to our bodies, our minds and our souls. I just hope that all consider this the next time an “Eve” comes along. Would like to see a woman you loved go thru what she is right now?
Catherine