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Thanks all – for your opinions and input. I have decided to take the original post down. She contacted me and was upset about this post. Now I feel bad about this. Why? Well, because I didnt want anyone to get upset, feel bad or hurt feelings. It is what it is I guess. I dont like causing trouble and I meant no hard feelings about this. I am, as everyone else in life, still learning and growing as a human. This is not what I wanted to do. The main reason I did this, was because I am not the most experienced at this hobby and, well, just to see if I was totally out to lunch with my thoughts or just to see if anyone had similar experiences during their hobby career. It was not my intention, and I don’t think I was, in the original post, to be mean, rude or to hurt feelings or even slam her. After all I didn’t even say who this person is. I meant no ill will towards her or anything like that. Total curiosity to see what others thought. I suppose I will move on from this, and she has promised to donate my donation to CHEO so at least some good comes of this. For the person that this happened with, I hope you take care and I wish you all the best. Sorry that this has happened this way, and sorry if I hurt your feelings. I was just laying out the information and just wanted to know what others may have done. Again, I was not meaning to be insulting or rude or mean. If it came across to that way..well, sorry. Unfortunate that this has happened the way it has. Thank you to all the Cerbites that shared their thoughts here. It is nice to know that Im not completely insane lol. Anyways…

monogamy sucks. lol. Im with Annessa on this one. Obviously I partake, and to be honest this is my last year doing this (maybe-we'll see as so far 2010 i have had 6 or 7 cancellations on me :( and i was hoping to go out with a bang). Mainly out of guilt, though it is no where near as strong as it was when i first started. But the being sneaky aspect isnt the most fun, ya know? And i know if she knew it would hurt her, which is where i feel bad. But we have been dysfunctional for a long while, and like i said i had only ever been with her... so...(jeez how much of an ass does this make me seem huh?) I started doing this because i had only ever been with my SO. Im still young, very curious, and SO isnt into some of the stuff i would like to explore. So this has been an exploration sexually for me, and really about myself too. Those taht know me, know im a spazz and maybe neurotic lol, but those that I have seen more than once can probably akcnowledge that i have grown... a little anyways lol... but it doesnt mean i dont love my SO or would ever think of leaving her. I love her very much, but we just arent that compatible sexually, unfortunately, which sucks. And i think monogamy is almost impossible. I mean we are as a society so judgemental, especially when it comes to celebrity scandals etc... but how many of those men/women would turn down offer after offer after offer while away from home? I think if all of us were rich and famous we would all be cheating lol... anyways...

I'd probably pass out lol... though I have bumped into one mp...which i was close to passing out as i was with my SO...happy we were in different sections of the store at the time so she didnt see me almost run run run away!lol another time with my fave mp... well she was invited to something, i actually originally wasnt going to be there, nor was my SO...but we both ended up there!... that was nerve wracking as all hell too...superly happy i delayed and delayed at the end so as not to be on the same elevator on the way down... I always worry about this stuff...(yes as many of you know!! i am king of the spazzes) though there is something a little thrilling about it at the same time. weird huh? However yes...if it were ever to happen while i am with my SO i would probably pass out, hoping for a heart attack (or maybe faking one) so as not bear the wrath of the wife...(which may or may not include the chopping off of certain parts) lol

Other than those that Ive seen, no one knows. And I certainly hope it stays that way! lol... As the ladies I have seen know how freakishly spazzy and neurotic about this I am. Even though it would be such a long shot I worry about seeing someone that I already know, or knows my wife!... I think I would have a mini heart attack! Always extremely nervous when I get to that door and knock, I just have visions of it swinging open and theres my wifes best friend, or my wife! lol... and you know what if it was my wife(even though i doubt there is a chance in hell that would ever be the case) I would still be the one in trouble! Would I like to talk about things to a friend? Yeah, but I wouldnt want to burden anyone with this. For me its complicated as it is and have kind of been on a journey of sexual discovery of myself, obviously without my SO knowing(which is a long story in itself), so I dont think I would want to burden any of my friends with keeping that kind of a secret. You know? Which is why Im grateful this site is around.

hmmmm... as long as you're not going for like a poodle type haircut, a mullet or, ummm, a poodle mullet... id say go to a salon and tell the guy(there is a great one on sussex i believe) that you have an inkling for something new/different and to work his magic... they are usually good at figuring out what to do...however... make sure to mention that you dont want to have to spend like 18 hours to fix it up each morning :) but also...im sure you like great as is or will look great in whatever style or length you do! (as long as its not a poodle mullet or variations of that theme :) )

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I titled this WOW! because thats all I was able to utter following my WOW filled visit with Miss Constance! Although I vaguely recall having a conversation before leaving, I cant for the life of me remember because all that was happening in my mind was WOW. On my way back to the car people must have looked at me funny as WOW kept leaving my mouth every few paces. Thankfully I did not walk into anyone, nor into potholes(or off ledges). Which is surprising really, considering I am a clutz at times, and generally a spazz. I just kept thinking how I want to turn around and go back up and spend more time. Truly incredible!! Anyway... Where do I start...I guess at the start... Setting up an appointment was easy, or as easy as it gets with me as a client. I generally introduce myself in what is probably an epic email or pm, which may or may not put the person to sleep as I ramble on for like 30 pages. Well she responded right away and wasnt all "I think you need to get on some meds". After a flurry of correspondences, and nerves somewhat allayed(I am a bit neurotic especially upon a meeting), date and time where set! (and hyperventilating began). So the day comes, and my mind is going about a billion miles per hour. Any of the ladies that have seen me can probably attest that at first it probably seems like i could pass out at any moment!... I get to her door. Wobbly legs. Thinking 'Oh my God...I hope I dont know her or her me in personal world'. Knock. Thinking 'its probably going to be like my wifes best friend or some other..."Door opens. Thinking 'WOW!' I just stood there and I think I did a semi hand wave as I said 'hi' and stood. She semi hand waved back and suggested I'd feel more comfortable inside, so grabbing my hand she led me in, closed the door pushed me up against the wall and gave me a deep and passionate kiss. I think this is where I said 'WOW' out loud for the first time. She smiled at me and gave me a look as if to say 'if you thought that was WOW, wait til you see what Im going to do to you' (Now I doubt thats what the look was saying - I may be taking a writing liberty here, cause for all I really know, the look could have been for 'oh boy he is a terrible kisser!') Taking my jacket she asked If I wanted a drink and told me to make myself comfortable. Some chit chat ensued, and slowly the nerves started relaxing, but I think I managed to actually speak. As Lonskater mentioned, she is very intelligent. She is funny, sweet and gorgeous. Her personality is very warm and welcoming. Very easy to talk to(that is, when you finally get over the 'OH MY GOD SHE IS HOT AND SHE IS RUBBING MY LEG AT THIS VERY MOMENT AND WILL BE RUBBING AND TOUCHING OTHER PARTS SOON' that runs through and clouds your mind). As the conversation winds up she starts kissing me and its even more passionate then at the door. Taking my clothes off she starts kissing me all over and then stops at the one area and my mind explodes! Watching her give me a BBBJ was 'WOW'! she makes eye contact and does things with her tongue that you cant even explain! Well I wanted in on some tongue action too and went down on her. 'WOW' She is extremely yummy, so very tasty and very responsive as her legs started tightening up around me and she pulled my head in more and more. Hearing her and feeling her twitch was driving me wild. I could have stayed there in her tasty wonderland for a long long time... and i did for a bit longer(yay) as she positioned into a 69. And again I have no clue how she makes her tongue do those things. After a little while she looks back at me and says 'I want to feel you in me' and reached over for a cover. She turned around to face me and lowered herself on me and grabbed my hands and rasied them over my head as she rode me and kissed me and thrust her nipples into my mouth... and she started getting into a rhythm faster slower faster slower and it was getting intense as we pushed into each other. Before we had met we had discussed a multitude of positions that we were going to try out, but the way she was riding me with the intensenity and the ecstasy I was feeling I wanted to be in this same postion and rhythm all day and night long. To be honest I dont know how I lasted this long and was still going, as our breaths were getting shorter and the rhythm got faster and i could feel her quivering as she thrust me deeper and deeper within her and then she leant down and kissed me and then arched herself back as she started her orgasm and with that I joined her in that moment as she kept pushing herself down on me and i kept pushing myself up. She then collapsed onto my chest, pushed her hair back, kissed me lightly on the lips, looked at me and I said 'WOW!'... she laughed and rolled over onto her side and snuggled up as we talked a bit more... or I should say she carried a conversation with a guy who can only really recall 'WOW!'... Im just keeping my fingers crossed that my side of the conversation didnt paint me as a total moron! All in all it was an abosolutley mind (and I suppose, body) blowing experience. So much fun. Constance is extremely hot, gorgeous, so very nice and I could go on, but lets just say she has it all! I wish I didnt have to leave but like Loneskater I too did not want to over stay my welcome, as she is not a clock watcher. So heading to the door she again pushed me against the wall and kissed me, hard and soft all at once as our tongues met for the last time before leaving. Giving me a smile that said 'Good luck paying attention at work' (again writers liberty here...as it could have said 'Thank God hes finally leaving') and I stumbled down the hallway saying 'Wow!' Constance - I thank you for such an amazingly delicious time! It is something I will never forget and I can not wait until the next time (which hopefully will be really soon!!!)! Constance is for those looking for a smokin hot, smart, fun and amazing GFE gal. Treat her well guys as she is a gem that will (echoing Lonskater here)hopefully be around for a long while :) peace, spacey PS. Repeat? Duh... will be, I imagine, many many times! PPS. YMMV PPPS. WOW!

Its not so much all religion as those that distort it to whatever suits them... the catholic church is notorious... not all of them but a lot of it is doom and gloom... but if you actually follow the words of the dude in which christianity is named for... its basically love, peace, do not judge others, and try to be as good and true of a person you can be... after all one of his buddies was, well, an sp lol... it seems like, especially right wing conservative, christians just gloss over what christianity and most religions are really about... and that is acceptance, of yourself and others.

ALL THE TIME!!! I LOVE IT!! lol... im constantly horny... never caught by family or friends... wasnt ever really mentiond i guess... other than an awkward sex talk when in early teens... I always wanted to get caught... in detention with a hot teacher lol... always chickened out though...but have done so discreetly in public places... or whatever... i guess i have a bit of a voyeuristic tendancy to me... did i ever feel bad? no... its always been enjoyable and fun... i could go on and on... but anyways... LOVE IT!!

I LOVE Foot Fetish!! I always feel weird stating that lol... but well, whatever.... Yes indeed I love foot fetish service! I find it really hot to rub and kiss and lick a womans feet... and, well, having her rub them on me! lol

What about Mr. Spazz? :) The ones I have seen have seemed to have gotten a kick out of it, and leaves me wide open for teasing.

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Anyone with with advice? running out of time.... help! :) lol

I think she used to when she first started... but seems like it is no more...

Hi all... I am looking and hoping to be able to take part in my first ever duo this weekend.. Either Friday February 19 in the evening or Saturday February 20th at any time... I have never been in a duo and this is my last year in taking part in this hobby (not that I ever really did this often anyway...but my goal was to experience many different things sexually... I had only ever been with my SO before dipping my toe into this hobby). So I figure that I would finally venture further and try a duo (how do i manage to make that sound painful...good god) For those that know me... you know im shy, spazzy and slightly neurotic... but have gotten better over the past couple years, plus Im cute, fun to tease, funny (probably unintentionally), and also kinky and willing to experiment!!! (and now I sound like an eharmony ad!) Anyways... If there are any ladies that want to be my first ever duo, please pm me... and guys if you have any recommendations please let me know! A couple of my favorites no longer have partners so Im counting on you all to help a cerbite out!

To all the fabulous, magnificent and beautiful ladies... May all your sexual appetites be satiated... May all your desires come true... May all the love in the world shine on you... I wish you all a very Happy Valentines Day! And kisses and hugs to... the passionate, sweet & adorable Miss Cameron... the lovely & sensual Miss Misty? the sultry & hot Miss Jasmin? the charming & alluring Miss Cat... the erotic & wild Miss Gina Leigh? the sexy & provocative Miss Monique? the voluptuous & enthralling Miss Bethany and, well, kisses and hugs to everyone! (why not?) :)

I do not suffer from debilitating anxiety, but I guess you can say I get anxious. I tend to worry, and I am probably a touch neurotic... which can make me be a spazz(klutz, trip over my words etc...), and i can get nervous... I think it stems from having a very overactive imagination. Which is great - especially when it concerns my career but can come up with the most outrageous scenarios prior to a meeting. At first, yes, I had issues of actually going out and doing this. Still do for the most part but am able to deal and I understand that it is a part of my own sexual exploration and maturation. Do I still feel guilty? yes, but less so. But whatever... Anyways... whenever I see someone I always think that they may already know me, or know of me, or know my SO or family etc... or on the way over or while knocking on a door or leaving that i bump into a friend or wife or relative. Or my SO has hired a private detective, or im being followed...the list goes on... some of it is quite hilarious actually! overall, yes i do get anxiety over this hobby, but i also believe that everyone gets some form of anxiety in life and as long as it is not debilitating it is a good thing, as it does make you feel alive and you can get past things. I always view it as a form of excitement too... almost like that feeling you get in horror movies... Have no idea if any of this makes sense... but maybe im just spazzing here... yeah.. im a freak...

she was supposed to come this upcoming week...but had to change plans...not sure when she will be able to get up here

She sure is Antlerman! This is who I saw probably in around 2008...

If only I was brave enough!! The TS that I had mentioned before is coming back soon - maybe - keeping my fingers crossed... still dont think im ready for, I guess, taking it (dont know if I ever will be to be honest), but again I hope she comes so I could still some exploring fun again with her.

Im pretty open... Have visited with a TS... and that was fun... although I didnt go all the way... was way nervous about being on the other end... but we had fun with other things and she was very hot... Have been curious about a MMF, not sure again if i could actually take it or give it to an actual guy, or even kiss, but probably more in the oral sense...giving a blowjob with a woman...or mutual masturbation/oral...or just watching each other get off... as someone above said there is something to a nice cock. If the TS i saw before ever comes back to Ottawa, I would probably see her again and try again... not sure if I would be able to take it, being a neurotic, inexperienced spazz that i am...but again theres other ways to have fun... been a process for me over the past couple of years of exploring my sexuality...not that im a true regular as visits have been few and far between... but its been fun too!

Party Girl - U2 Red Light - U2 Running to Stand Still-U2 Desire - U2 Lets Go to Bed - the Cure

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I too am beyond shy!... I also have a foot fetish...I have found when you make contact just to ask about it... I dont do this too often and i dont have a whole lot of experience in the scene, but the ones I have seen over the years have been very accomodating...Everyone that I have seen has had sexy feet (and, well, sexy everything else!), and had been more than willing to play... be upfront and dont be shy to ask... the worst that can happen is they say its not their thing and you can keep searching.... when i first started it was with mps... Jasmin has awesome feet and knows how to use em (my first time ever was with her and being a general spazz and like 80 billion emails back and forth before i had the courage to go and it was so worth it)... Trish who used to work with her as well was very accomodating, as well as a few other ladies that no longer work there...Bethany is another mp that is talented with her toes... then i guess i wanted to do a little more and 'graduated' i guess, to sps... and Monique was great and had nice sexy feet... PrettyPaige...who i dont think is here anymore... was amazing and had a lot of experience with it... The one and only Sexy Cat is so very sensual with it... My super favorite has ticklish feet so havent really been able to experiment with the feet too much but she is just so awesome that it doesnt matter to me... not naming her as im being greedy! :)... again as a super nervous, shy, spazz myself... i have always found if your honest and upfront you can find what you need... and the ladies are so super nice... (although they may be just taking pity on the dork that is me lol)...

Oh and to the OP... Im like you... I lurk quite a bit...goes in phases...but if you search around most of the reccomendations, especially from the senior members here, they do not steer you wrong at all...