mrgreen760

Personally I'd rather be told no than be ignored. I can handle a no but being ignored is just plain rude in my view. Not sure why some one would want to see a provider who didn't want to see them. Doesn't seem like fun to me. My pet peeve this year has been what I call the tyranny of the minority. When the minority screws up it's the majority whom seem to pay the price. And that doesn't seem fair some how. Peace MG

I wrote this a year ago today. The apartment was clean and the landlord had completed the final inspection and it was time for me to go. I asked for a moment and stepped out onto the balcony for the last time. It was the morning of November 30 and it was a little chilly and as I lit my cigarette I noticed my hands shaking a bit and I felt a little shivery. As I inhaled that smoke and looked out on the courtyard I finally just let it all go. As I stood sobbing and smoking the landlord discretely stepped out of my view. My Dad passed away on November 1 and the past 30 days has been a blur of making final arrangements, organizing a heck of a wake, making and receiving countless phone calls and having countless conversations as well as wading through a myriad of paper work. I made multiple daily trips to pack memorable items and donate and give away his stuff. George Carlin was right at the end no one really wants most of your stuff. It fully crystallized for me the futility of chasing stuff. And now it was over. Now it would be my time to mourn. My Dad joined the Merchant Navy as a 16 year old in 1942 and began the adventure of a life time. His ports of call included Peru, Venezuela, Cuba, France, England and on and on including several trips across the North Atlantic and through the Guatemala Canal. Raised a family of 3 children, suffered the loss of a child aged 44 to breast cancer and then my Mom to stomach cancer 11 years ago. He lived in the same house for 52 years and spent the last 5 years in an apartment, the one I turned over yesterday. Dad enjoyed remarkably good health for most of his life, 3 years ago in his early 80?s that started to change. I became part of his care giving team and we spent a lifetime of time together at Dtrs appointments and in hospital rooms. We never had much in common, I am not a parent and certainly didn?t go to war at 16 and things have come relatively easy for me. Truth be told he sort of figured I just skated through life and never really applied myself, and it was true mostly because I haven?t had to. It wasn?t that I didn?t work, I always have but he knew that even the exec positions I held came have come easy for me. But all those hours together made us have to talk to pass the time and I learned exactly who this man, my Dad was, what he believed in, why he made the decisions he did. That was very cool. Dad had a great home care team and my role was in reality pretty easy, I handled the banking, attended all appointments, and ultimately became in charge of his care. One Xmas season the home care schedule was thrown into flux and there would be no one available for bath day. There was really no choice, either there would be no bath or I would be the one to provide it. It was sort of a humiliating experience for him and an embarrassing situation for me but a one point I realized we were having one of those life is a full circle moments as he would have bathed me as a child and here the child was bathing him. He had enjoyed a tremendous summer and celebrated his great grand daughter?s 1st and 3rd birthdays. I tried to convince him to go to emergency the day he passed, but said he didn?t want to lie in a hallway for days on end and would rather watch the World Series and eat some ice cream. He passed away that night and we found him the next morning. His last words to me were: Thanks for everything and don?t feel guilty?.. I stood there with tears streaming down my face reflecting on our journey together and how I found out whom he really was and in the process also found out who I really am and I couldn?t be more grateful. It was my turn to mourn and then I?ll do what he would expect me to do. I?ll live a lot and I?ll laugh a lot and I?ll love a lot?..he wouldn?t have in any other way. Peace MG

From the frying pan to the fire. Peace MG

Weirdest/interesting gift I've given was a walking stick/cane made from a bulls penis. The process was hanging said penis with weights attached as it dried out and stretched. It had an intricate leather handle Cattle buyers would use them to hurd cattle and also to tap the animal on the shoulders, the sound apparently gave some indication of bone health. Peace MG

To me natural would mean, has orginial GM parts.. :) Peace MG

One of the advantages of getting older.....no need for speed :) Peace MG

:)) Peace MG

And I also learned that I'm better looking, funnier, sexier, taller, much more interesting and a better lover than I ever thought I was... ;) Peace MG

What I've learned: -people's individual taste in beauty is highly variable and extremely personal -not everyone is cut out for this gig... sp's and clients alike -most people involved in the hobby are by and large just people and run the gamut of personalities and types and just like every day life and some you'll like and some you won't -expectations can be set unrealistically high...just because some one has chosen to be a sex industry worker doesn't always mean they'll be "good" at it -one needs to be vigilant to ensure that the business/peronal lines don't get too confused because in the end it is what it is.....pay for play -good manners and respect is a two way street Peace MG

Smart is the first priority for me and of course if they dig me.....they're obviously smart. Peace MG

Falling Down......Michael Douglas Ghost World...Thora Birch The Mighty.....Sharon Stone The Trueman Show.....Jim Carrey Laura Linney Something Wild....Melanie Griffith Jeff Daniels Murphy's Romance...Sally Field James Garner Wrestling Ernst Hemmingway.....Robert Duval Richard Harris All 80's early 90's all terrific. Peace MG

I often describe it as the smile of my face that nobody else understands :)) Peace MG

No one in my "normal" world has a clue. And there is no one I would ever share this knowledge with. I look at it this way....life is very very short and all things have a shelf life. Not sure how much of a shelf life hobbying has left for me. I try to be very selective and try to fly under the radar so to speak. I've met some great gals by and large and it is what it is. It's sort of like smoking pot for me, I can take it or leave it.......I'm just better when I take it :) In the end I'm just trying to do the best I can and cause as little harm as possible. Peace MG

I lay a wreath at a Remembrance Day ceremony in memory of my Dad and other Merchant Navy Veterans. It should be a day of remembrance and in my view not a stat holiday. Peace MG

Most everytime I like to give about a weeks notice. It esures my schedule is open and it gives the girl a chance to head for the hills....:) Peace MG

It was the first time and I really had no choice but to be cool. I have done a ton of media so I've learned that you can think much faster that you speak which has helped me develop very good thinking on my feet skills. Peace MG

I had gone to an MP in Winnipeg on a New Years Eve afternoon. I had a more erotic session than usual with some one I had never seen before. For some reason we really clicked. Later that evening I went to a restuarant with a very large group of people for dinner, many I'd never met before. We arrived late and sat at the end of a very long table there were 2 other spots left. I was glancing at the menu and chatting with people beside us when I noticed that 2 others had slipped into their seats directly across from us. I looked up to introduce myself and low and behold it was the the girl from 2-3 hours earlier. I stuck out my hand and did introductions which allowed her to hear my real name and to ensure I didn't call her by her "stage" name. The four of us ended up chatting about this and that until the dinner moved onto a house party. At no time did we let on even when we were alone in the kitchen while opening wine. I saw her subsequently at the MP and she was a regular for quite awhile. She marvelled at how cool I'd been. It is a small world indeed :) Peace MG

I was invited but simply way to public for me.......I'm shy lol Peace MG

Gotta a hunch they may be one in the same but not positive. (it appears I'm wrong since doubles are being offerred...sorry about that) Peace MG

A reminder that this can be a tough gig at times. Let's be sure to be kind to each other. Peace MG

Been in the same boat a few times myself and I've never understood it. I'd never treat anyone that way. There's no harm in saying no to something or not being interested but ignoring someone in my view is just plain ignorant. Common courtesy and manners should be the rule of the day. Unfortunately it isn't aways the case and it seems to be becoming less and less so. Peace MG

A beautiful mind attracts me first for sure, but the carrying case does matter. I prefer the natural girl next doorish types who are somewhat active whether it's walking, yoga or whatever. Peace MG

Thanks Man! Would someone please pass me the papers :) Peace MG

Blueberries, plain natural yogurt, oat bran and ground flax. For health Jagr, Stella, Red wine and the devils lettuce for fun :) Peace MG

Thanks Megan :) Back to our regular scheduled programming ....;) Peace MG