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Yes I did, with my one, with my only, forever AF.

Maybe its not so much that but more did I find a best friend that I love.

I'm not sure if Love and SP are 2 words that can be in the same sentence. Love with an SP and Love with a GF or SO is not or cannot be the same. It can exist and it can be the same or different - NO - it must be different. It cannot be the same given the nature of the relationship. It sometimes feels the same, it creates so much happiness and elation at times. It creates so many fun times, crazy times, together times, intimate times, sad times and cry times. It hurts like the real Love - sometimes so much so because you know that the dynamics are different and cannot really change. That is why a barrier must exist between both otherwise it becomes too difficult to deal with at times - but it must exist so that some sanity can be maintained and so that the moment you do spend together can be enjoyed. It is one of the most difficult dynamcs to deal with at times but can also be the most estatic high one can experience. I wish I could explain it better and had more time and space to write about it. All I can really say is it can provide the highest of highs and lowest of lows when in a relationship with so many dimensional layers and depths.

I am sure this is rare but I was wondering if there are situations where an SP and say 2 of her hobbiest friends all actually know each other in person. More specifically I am wondering what the dynamics of such a relationship is and how it evolves over time - basically speaking is it a good dynamic to have or not. My instinct, if I were to look at the big picture, would be NO - but want opinions of those who have been or are in this situation and also of those who have not.

Very likely as I have met my best friends across the river.

... if we have any talented singers or dancers amongst our female CERB community.

WOW that was great listening to that .. I really enjojed it. Thanks JoyfulC.

... but since that's almost impossible I'll more than gladly settle for my only favorite who looks like her except for one difference - she's better looking and so much more. And as soon as I can figure out how to insert a picture of her I will .... .... here you go. http://www.wallpaperbase.com/wallpapers/celebs/carmenelectra/carmen_electra_1.jpg

This is a very special thread. To see it come up again and having read through it one more time brought back many memories and very strong emotions. So strong that I am trying to re-compose myself so that I can get back to work and function to some acceptable level. In reading some of the posts there was one that said why post your feelings here, why not tell her how you feel. Well, in some ways, in some small ways, on a few occassions I did. Maybe not so directly in words but in some kind of words and in many actions. I actually think and believe that it is a difficult subject to talk about openly given the lives and situation of both parties. After knowing each other for so long I now think we both know the feelings between us but we both are very careful about plunging to deep onto this subject because of its implications on both our emotions and lives. We do test the waters, we dabble in it, we laugh and enjoy it, and I know there are very brief moments when we are together and talking or singing or just briefly looking at each other that we both know there is something very unique and special here that continues to evolve and will continue to do so somehow. It takes 2 very strong minded people to walk that fine line for so long knowing they can cross it briefly for that sense of emotional happiness, security and even sadness but also know that they can really never ever ever saty on the other side for very long - that would change everything - everything that makes this special, unique and irreplaceable. In this crazy world we live in, it is rather rare but when it happens special and unique to feel your emotions and soul awakend in which mine were and still are - The only saving grace is the head on my shoulder to help me deal with this situation now and forever as best as I can.

When you find the right person where the chemistry is right and trust exists, its nice to have someone to open up to and talk to about things you wouldn't talk to with anyone else. Its kind of like a doctor patient relationship - everything stays between the two people. There are obviously other reasons whcih I don't need to mention.

I went there a very long time ago - at least 15 years ago if not more hoping to get a really nice massage + and have never gone back. I also wonder how the heck they stay in business - must be diversified revenue streams.

If you meet an SP that you really get along with, understand (as much as is possible in this domain), laugh with, cry with, help out in many ways, drink with, hang out with, have fun with talk about anything on either side of this world, travel with, dance with and so much more than its pretty simple how one would feel. Its like having your very best friend of all times die - like you will never see, talk to or hear talked about ever again. It is a tremendous loss and one that takes a long time to, not get over about (this is impossible) but a long time to function normally on a daily basis again. How can you forget your best friend who knows everything about you. I have lost one, the same one a few times, but have had her come back. I know what it feels like and what it will feel like when it happens permanently and am a little better prepared for it. It does not change anything after seeing her after her disappearances. The way I look upon it is I am glad she is in my life when she can be and am thankful for every day that she is - I never look forward to the day that she will leave forever but know it may happen and am a little better prepared for it but know that I will need my head on my shoulders to understand and reason things out otherwise the emotional setback and disruption it causes me in all parts of my life will destroy me. Even as I see her I know how it feels when I go a single day or two of not talking to her or seeing her but I hold back because I know that she, as I do, has another life of her own. I can go on forever about this subject but all I can say is its real, it exists and am thankful for every day - no not day but minute I have her in my life.

It is becoming more common where good clients become friends. In fact the SPs will have a few very good friends of such who will help them and do much more for them. It can sometimes be alittle complicated and difficult.

She has a body like Allexxis pot of gold who I had seen 7-8 years ago. She is relaxed and seems to enjoy the companionship.

After thinking hard about seeing someone from CL I decided to try based on my talk with her on the phone - she seemed very pleasant and that she was staying at a very upper class hotel in downtown Ottawa. Phoebee is a nice young girl who I would say is slightly curvaceous. I did not ask specifics about her options but she does seem like and was safe and fun to be with. She was very friendly and seemed to enjoy what she was doing.