Jade-S (Retired)

Some days? People in general are enough to make you say WTF. Ever have one of them days?

Ive Done all but 3! And Im not telling you which ones! :P They were all great! I'd recommend them all. :D Especially one in particular, its my all time favorite :) J xo

I dont as a rule consider the things I like fetishes, I give them no thought beyond the the thought that I enjoy them, though I will say I did struggle with a couple of things that I thought really?? I like that?? LOL In the beginning anyway lol I do things now that I would have never considered 10 years ago, with age, knowing more, knowing myself better and a lack of caring what society would say is "normal" I've learned to get out of my comfort zone. I like that.. I wish I could say that I was always comfortable with my own sexuality, comfortable in my own skin, I wasnt, but I definitely am today! lol I think for many women fear of being sexual is predominant, it always has a form of stigma attached, slutty ect.. I tried to squash for years what I would now consider the normal and natural state of being myself. Once I learned to get out of my own way thats when I felt more, well everything ;)

I would say Robert Downey Jr or Hugh Jackman when they are all scruffed up! Mmmm mmmmm mmmmmm!

HAHA! I was! I was like what do you mean the page is broken!? I cant get on CERB! As someone I know aptly named it..she said its Madisons facebook. I knew exactly what she meant, I spend more time here than any other when Im surfing the web. Thanks Mod for getting it back up and running so quickly Im sure tons of us would be lost without it! <3 J xo

As most of us know you can buy all kinds of "natural" male and female sex enhancers at most if not all local sex shops. You could always make that suggestion if asked... I understand why you would not. I know if I was asked i would definitely not. I would not put someones life in my hands that way.

HAHAH! loved this!

Dear Stud, In light of the fact that I cannot send you a direct PM as it keeps kicking it back to me for an overfull inbox. I would like to tell you that not only do I need a space for the atrocious amount of shoes I own.... This post has made me laugh so hard I've tears streaming down my face. Thank you. It was just what I needed xoxo PS I've some interesting ideas on how to feed you those grapes! ;P J xo

Thank you all very much <3 <3

I love the way the world works,:) everything good, bad has a lesson, I truly believe that and that things/situations are given to you to help you change grow, evolve. I'd have to say it sounds like you llearned more than one lesson xoxo

Happy Birthday!

This particular song gives me hope, makes me cry in sadness and in gratitude for all the people out there who are every day heroes.. It reminds me to stay true to myself no matter what the world brings. To help, to make a difference and if you only save one, its still one. And that means something... What song has opened your eyes, made a memory, makes you cry, makes you feel love? Our lives are a soundtrack, share yours with us, give us a glimpse into your life. Will you share a moment of your life with us? Share a memory of happiness, sadness, crazy music sex! lol Artist: Garth Brooks Song: The Change Album: Fresh Horses One hand Reaches out And pulls a lost soul from harm While a thousand more go unspoken for They say what good have you done By saving just this one It's like whispering a prayer In the fury of a storm And I hear them saying you'll never change things And no matter what you do it's still the same thing But it's not the world that I am changing I do this so this world will know That it will not change me This heart Still believes The love and mercy still exist While all the hatred rage and so many say That love is all but pointless in madness such as this It's like trying to stop a fire With the moisture from a kiss And I hear them saying you'll never change things And no matter what you do it's still the same thing But it's not the world that I am changing I do this so this world will know That it will not change me As long as one heart still holds on Then hope is never really gone I hear them saying you'll never change things And no matter what you do it's still the same thing But it's not the world that I am changing I do this so this world we know Never changes me What I do is so This world will know That it will not change me http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xl6fqe_garth-brooks-the-change_music

Well...I cant speak for other providers. All I would say is ask. :) Either its offered or not. Though if your too shy to ask there are non-verbal clues to give as to what you would like. ;) She will either gently tell you its not part of her menu. or...she will go for it ;) lol

Anything that makes me feel. Peaceful. love. soothed. joy, happiness. Hope. laughter. Those sounds can come from everywhere and no where. :) My favorite place to be? Is the feeling of being wrapped in your lovers arms and the rest of the world falls away..

Hell yeeesssssss....;)

Well Miss Sparks I am highly flattered. It was truly my pleasure to have met you. Looking forward to doing so again. Thank you xoxoxo

I would be willing to organize such a meeting between SP's. I think there is safety in the information to be shared. And also believe it would be good from a mental health position. Being an SP is often lonely if you live a double life like so many of us do. We have few to vent to and none who understand. If anyone is interested in this...message me i will make some arrangements. :) Jade

Right now? Ottawa :)

Well. Im thinking I should keep my wish list private. But I do have one....;) lol

Can we have a wish list? :)

Happy birthday to you..I hope all your wishes come true xoxox

Who's to say gentleman my garter my not be hung up forever ;) Always, Jade xoxo

After some searching, I wanted to let you know I've made a decision to take a leave of absence from from CERB as well as my life as Jade. There comes a time when we all have to make lasting and important decisions. There are few more important things in life than the people we love. And this is where this decision come from. CERB has been an amazing and supportive community I couldnt have asked for a better place to make many friends. That encourages and supports all of the wonderful and amazing women here. The cerb gentlemen are by far bar none. Thank you for just being you. You will all be missed... Jade xoxo I also wanted to let you know I will no longer be reachable on my phone.

I truly beleive we create our own circumstances by thought word and deed. I have an unfailing belief that the universe adores me and is aways trying to do whats best for me. Obstacles, situations are there for your growth. Some of the worst things that have happened to you often produce the greatest results. I also have the belief that I can have what I want. That Im loved enough by the universe and myself to allow myself to have it. I think some of us like Christy said struggle with what our role is. Thats frustrating. But I've come to learn that if you follow your path do what makes you happy your role will come to you. I think if you make decisions based on whats going to make you happiest then you've made the right decision and the people around you are happy as well. sadly we primarily live in a society where we are in a constant barrage of negativity. Rarely on the news, the newspaper is there something wonderful happening. I'd love to say Im positive all the time but the fact is..Im human. shit pisses me off occasionally. lol I think the trick is not to hide from it. Let yourself get mad and then let it go. Dwelling on it serves no one. Most especially. Yourself. Thank you for your input. I LOVE knowing what and how people think, its fantastic. And I have to say. Im not at all surprised at the ladies responses on this topic. You are all incredibly giving and genuine and talented women. We are lucky to have you. Not only here. But the world is a better place for having you in it. Jade xo

I know that our arrangment is as such that it is me that is here for you, an escape from your world to take you to a place of excitment and fantasy. Where you dont have to think. Where we can drown in a place of pleasure in togther. Or to seek comfort when your lonely, lost, stressed. I know that given our lives we cannot always be together when you want us to be. I understand that you have responsibilities that need to be attended to. Family, work. Please understand this for me as well. We live seperate lives. It is as it should be. I know this. I will always try to be here for you when you need me. Though its not always possible. I know it frustrates you sometimes when you are unable to reach me. Its frustrating for me as well. This double life we both lead sometimes makes meeting difficult. Be patient love, it will get better, easier. Sometimes I cannot share with you the reasons that keep me from you. That is also as it should be. In this illusion we've created unless we reach a level of trust. It does not allow me to tell you when Im hurting or sad or tired or ill. You do not come to see me for those things. You come to see me for my smile, the way my eyes light up when they search your face. You come to see me to feel my lips caress yours. To feel my hands exploring your body. To feel the gentleness of my touch. To share moments of time together to laugh, to love. To explore your dreams, your fanasies. I love being able to give that to you. To share that with you. I want to always give you the best of me. Anytime we speak. any time that we share that I am yours. If there is ever a time when I cannot give you the best of me. I will not. I do not want you to see me that way. I hope you understand. Do you realise how special it is what we share. The trust it takes in the other? The unspoken promises we've made without asking? To protect each other. To keep secrets in the moments we share. To keep each other safe. I know I trust you. I have to, to be able bring you to a place that even if its not mine. Its ours for that time. I trust you to be gentle with me and not cause me pain. You trust me to keep healthy and whole. It says alot about you, and about me to be able to do that. I's amazing xo I love that every time we see each other our connection grows, our trust grows. That the more we know each other. It just gets better and better. I dont know how to end this letter to you except to say. Until we meet or are able to meet again. I will be thinking about you. Always, Jade xoxo