Czdrummer

Meg....wisdom comes from an open mind and an open wallet.

Shannon...yup includes us all. I'm more of a motherfucker, no good stubborn son of a bitch. Additional Comments: I'm actually hoping my account gets permanently shut down, deleted, and eliminated.

Hey Nicolette, you know how to read....I posted I don't need any pity or approval from anyone. You more than welcome to mind your own business if you can't read what I wrote

Meg I appreciate you concerns, but you stated earlier that my feelings are probably one sided and I probably put her in an uncomfortable situation. In another post above I was called spiteful. If I was I could have got her canned long ago. Why has she gone as far as she has with me, talked with and met me away from her work. She is the boss in this situation and holds the power. She could have told me to fuck off long ago, but she keeps giving me more, knowing how I feel about her. I don't get it.

Seriously. Just kidding bout the .38. None of you know all the facts about my situation. So the comments above I'll take with a grain of salt. I'm done with this topic for now....life goes on. I'll deal with it the best I know how

Yup. I'm a real mess, thus my post asking for help here. At this point I don't really know where to go from here?? But only I know how I feel towards this woman, and my feelings haven't changed in the last year. She knows how much I care and cherrish her. she does appreciate me as well. Soooo many ups and downs in the last year for me. Its my personal life and health that has suffered the most. And I've even turned to a hard drug to forget her. Maybe I need counselling, maybe a 38 special will eventually cure me. Many of your replies make very good sense, I should stay away....I've already tried that, I've seen other SP's, MP's and women of all sorts. All the extracurricular activities one could want, but in the end I always go back. What the fuck now!!!

It's been a bit over a year now and I've been seeing a lady MP on a regular basis. Things with her have become quite personal and I am about to go over the deep end....Never would have I thought for a second when I first walked though those doors that I'd be in the situation I now find myself. Like most of you I just wanted a massage and a release and off I'd go. But it just didn't work out that way. Things have progressed to the point that all the so called "rules" have been broken by the BOTH of us. I have fallen madly for her, to the point I can't get her out of my mind 24/7. I can honestly say I have never quite felt this way about anybody in my entire life. I've tried every possible thing to cure what ails me, from booze/drug fuelled binges, to no longer communicating with her, to going several months without seeing her, to finding other providers, to seeing a few full service girls and even a normal type GF. Left the country for a month.... Even tried spicing up the love life with the wife....all to no avail. I always revert back to her, as if my life is incomplete without her. She is well aware of my love for her, she kids around saying its lust, but I've lusted for women before and lust fades. I can honestly say her feelings don't run as deep as mine, and she often tells me "only time will tell" where we end up, and that me being married plays a huge factor as well if things are to proceed to another level....Am I a fool that has crossed the line?? I've now lost all control and don't know where to go from here....HELP!!!

If it ain't trim..I won't dive in

Dumber than a bag of hammers

Maybe the girl just didn't dig you...never heard of this happening but I've only ever been with one lady there.

Very interesting and a real turnoff I bet. Sound like a bunch of loser clients. I'm proud to say that none of the above behaviour applies to me. But at the same time I won't be taken advantage of either, whether it be with an SP or any other woman. Ive had a previous lady I was seeing ask me to pay her rent, bills etc...so it was arriiverderci for her. I don't tolerate drugs either. I'm with the perfect woman now and I intend on keeping her happy.

I want to thank all you for sharing some of your stories and experiences. This message board has been a god send for me over the last several months. This thread in particular has opened my eyes and helped me realize that I'm not the fucked up nut job I thought I was. Yes, we are all human, and we can be complex creatures at times. Thanks again.

This is soooo very true. I am quite new to the scene (about a year) I'm currently in a relationship with a beautiful, caring lady and we have become very trusting and close with each other. It took many months and a ton of time and commitment. I've had to step back at one point to cool things off because it was making me nuts. I was seeing another lady during that time but stopped visiting her a month ago. So now, more than ever, things have been really heating up with us again since I went back. A year has flown by and its turned into an extremely close personal trusting friendship. I cherish her more with each passing encounter. She was a tough nut to crack, but I'm now getting what I need from her....much more than just an SP/client relationship. I have expressed my inner most feelings with her, and she has gotten emotional, almost to the point of crying. It's been many months since I posted about my adventures with her, but reading the comments on this topic made me realize how much I really adore my beautiful girl.

This soooo true cinelli. I am quite new to the scene (about a year) but the two women I'm currently in a relationship with have become very trusting and close with myself. It took me many months and a ton of time, commitment and heart ache along the way. The first relationship, of almost a year now, has turned into an extremely personal trusting friendship, with some fine sex thrown in. The second is more or less very very sexual, not as personal as the first, but still fun. Its gotten to the point now where I don't have to pay for it with her. Oh yes she is very well known on these pages...Truth be told I enjoy both ladies but I hold the trusting friendship I have with the first girl as the more important of the two. I cherish her more with each passing encounter. She was a much tougher nut to crack, but I'm now getting what i want from her....I guess I'm enjoying the challenge. It's been many months since I posted about my adventures, but reading the comments on this thread made me realize how much time and commitment are important factors when dealing with my lovely ladies.

Thanks all for your comments, suggestions, opinions and all who PM me. I was fortunate enough to hook up with another lady a couple times now and all I can say is touchdown. Thanks again all.