hammy1006

Submissive. Sexy body or sexy personality?

Traditional cg Doggy or missionary?

Both...either...but if I have to choose. I'll say blonde. Giving or receiving oral delights?

Hey MBRider Yeah. I love this gorgeous woman but I just didn't know how to show it. My lack of confidence had me suffocating her as I wanted to be with her every second of every day and that was out of fear of losing her to someone else, especially a past lover who she still sees on a regular basis. This stupidity had me becoming too much for her to deal with. This will haunt me for the rest of my life as I really felt she could make me happy. I would have given her anything and everything in a second. It'll be a long time before I get past this I do at all. I'm goin to get counselling as I've been pretty devastated since it all came apart. I still love her but that's a moot point. Depression is an illness and something I will deal with the rest of my life. I pray I can find myself and that inner happiness - once that's figured out I'll hopefully be someone that another can love. Happiness is that holy grail but the journey starts within.

I agree. This is not something someone just figures out alone. I am on meds and occasionally going to counseling. Depression absolutely is an illness and that's my point too. U just can't just will yourself to be happy.

Thanks for including me in the group. A serious weakness for me are the gorgeous red heads and freckles. Yummy. Sluurrrrp. Awesome.

Love the look and it can be soooo sexxxy with the right attitude. Love some of the pics. Thanks for sharing.

Can't wait to see everyone.

For the uninitiated may I ask what makes Ariel such a legend? Is it strictly the length of time she has been on the scene or are her services just way beyond what others deliver? Just fascinating how strippers are even still relevant when so many GfeMA and escort options are available. Just not familiar with the SC scene or mileage available.

So this is all a bit new to me but I will try to be open and honest here. This is a question I've wrestled with for most of my adult life - the pursuit of happiness. I like others have wrestled with depression and discovered this 8 or 9 years ago. I don't know how to describe it to those not going through it, but it's like being alone every minute of every day even if you're in a crowded room. In the darkest moments I have looked at the easiest "solution" but suicide luckily or me has not been the only solution. I think we all want to be happy and until recently I didn't know if I was capable of being happy. I experienced a high like no other thanks to a dream and a chance encounter where I believe I experienced love for the first time in my life. Unfortunately, as fate would have it , this was not to be. It's complicated and still very fresh in terms of the wounds. I learned I need to understand how to be "happy" with myself and by myself before I think I can be with anyone else. Otherwise, a dependent relationship where all I my "happiness" is dependent on what that other person says or does is doomed to fail. I wish everyone here could understand the depths and challenges of depression. It's not about just wanting to be happy. It's not about material things and sadly not even about sex or physical pleasure. Im sorry for rambling but this topic is timely and very relevant today as I step back, lick my wounds and look to recover and move on. I hope everyone finds happiness - whatever that may mean to each of you. Additional Comments: I think the time to appreciate the challenges of others might put things in perspective but on its own to feel joy o happiness it comes from within. The person whom I recently had a "relationship" with is the most amazing individual I've ever known. She has overcome adversity that would have destroyed me and probably most people. I think as someone who hasn't felt happiness and suffers from low self esteem I saw this as inspirational. I would even say it was attractive and "sexy" to me. That was all a bonus but also part of my mistake. I need to find my own strength and not try and enjoy the strength of others. I can't gain inner strength vicariously. I know that now but it's too late this time as I've lost her forever. I share this as I think spending time volunteering etc is always positive but it all starts and stops with knowing and liking yourself. External forces may help or hinder but I think happiness comes from within. Just my opinion.