antlerman 17064 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 Now this thread may not be for some of you...but many of you know me well enough you will understand why I am writing this. I have gone through life trying live every day to the fullest. I have lost to many friends and family to really let life pass me by. Now I am not a thrill junkie...but more of a person who wants to explore life in many ways. One of those ways is though sexual exploration.....I love to talk and interact with people...be it on any level...but especially the sexual level. To make something clear....I love sex......be it actually a physical release of cum..or the mental explosion of starts before your eyes....or even a combination of both....I love the feelings and after glow But as I get older I find I am more easily attaining the mental and less often the physical release of the orgasm.......allot of this I blame on my weak mental block of the raincoat....as soon as the antler sees one...the blood goes to the brain...and not as fast to between the legs... Now I have found the little pill that helps......but I tend to avoid it. Ladies...never take offense if a guy cannot cum...sometimes it is the physical closeness and contact that we crave.....sometimes it is a medical issue. Now back to the exploration Now I am not ashamed of masturbation and post...chat...and joke about it all the time. To me it is an incredible release of tension...stress...and daily problems. Now maybe I jerk off too much....who really knows...at least once a day...and sometimes up to God knows how many times. Now that is what led me to massages. Ahhhh...the glorious feeling of a nice pair of hands easing out the tension followed by the release of tension through the penis......being jerked off....I LOVE IT! Mutual masturbation.......be you doing each other or watching each other do it....so damn erotic. I still love it and go for massages.....but my exploration expanded... I got into (literally) ...the encounters with beautiful women...the hobby so to speak. I do not feel there is really any type of female form that I do not love..there is beauty in all...so I explore all ladies. There are some that I wish I could see...some that I have seen a few times....but there are so many it is so difficult to choose and play. I am not the aggressive male who takes charge. I prefer the female direct the action. After all their bodies are so much more complicated to please..and I so want to please them. I love to caress...feel...lick..smell...and admire the female form...delicious!!!! But that does not mean I want to get into S&M....I have tried it some and did not find it pleasing to me to attain any type of mental or physical pleasure. I have had a few 3-sums..and they have been from me being the amazing center of attention to almost being left out..but all taught me something. So I move on...what is there next...well...I have played around in the in-between sex....yup...she male...transgendered....lady boys....whatever the name.....now this is fun. An early experience e was good..but not what I was looking for. Then I met t-girl Nikki...and she turned my mind on first..gave me some of the best mental pleasure in this part of my sexual exploration. She opened my mind and made me feel very safe and sexually open...I will always thank her for that and want to catch up again when our schedules work. But I wanted more...then I met Lucy Bisset..WOW....that was an experience I really never put down on paper..or web. She is all woman..and more of something else. She brought me to sexual heights I never dreamed of....the feel of her in my mouth to her cumming on my face.....wow... This is where I am at now...and part of my next experience on the horizon...... My urges now are more going bisexual...yup..I wrote it....bisexual.......why?...well I have tried so much...I want to try more...not really into the guy on guy alone.....at least not yet in my future...but more into the 3-sum interactions. I have been looking at allot of Tumblr these days...something to fuel my appetite and the porn on MMF bisex is driving me crazy. I want to be in a scenario where myself and another man are pleasing a women...the thought of a woman and a man going done on me..or me going done on them....69 with the woman while the other guy does her doggy...wow...the options for me are endless..... So there you have my exploration to date on a sexual level.....will I post more...will I go further....do I know what is coming next.....only time will tell.... I have exposed a part of myself......I feel scared..but free.....ready to go on...hehehehehehe 24 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
etasman2000 15994 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 you have always been the trail blazer...... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jazzitup 5652 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 This took courage and it should be recognized. But also there is celebration of the exploration of your sexuality. It is admirable that you would share your adventures with all of us. I applaud you. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SamanthaEvans 166767 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 Wow. I really, really appreciate your openness, antlerman. It takes a lot of guts and a strong sense of personal security to write this openly about your experiences and desires. It's always great to know that you appreciate us, here. We want to be sources of pleasure and delight! I think it's fair to say that working in this industry has meant that most of us women have learned a great deal about male sexuality--what just about always works, what sometimes works, what rarely works but is really fabulous when it does, what a difference age makes or doesn't make, how to accommodate different physical limitations, etc. It's all fascinating stuff, to be sure. It's not so common to be told honestly about clients' sexual/erotic histories, though. I wish more of the men here would do as you have and describe their journeys, curiosity, investigations and hopes for the future. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest e**m***h Report post Posted July 10, 2011 Inspiring post, Antlerman! I say this for a number of reasons...but your freedom is the best of them. Sexual exploration is so truly amazing, (having been doing quite a bit myself lately), but when it leads to this freedom...it is so remarkable. What we can be starts to unfold in a profound way. Allow me to offer my respect for your willingness to go after this freedom and share it like this. I too had a memorable encounter with a ladyboy and started fantasizing (very delightfully) in the same direction as you. Not sure if or when I'll continue exploring this part of myself. Some of my explorations are winding down as I explore in yet other directions...but just the thought that so much possibility is out there waiting is so wonderful! Good luck. Hope it turns out even better than you desire. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
roamingguy 300292 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 One thing about this lifestyle and this community is that we are free to explore our sexuality in a hopefully judgement free environment (as long as no one is hurt) I know there are things I have yet to do, but want to try (like a menage a trois) There are some things on the edge of my comfort zone that I haven't tried, and may one day develop the courage to try There are some things outside my comfort zone and don't interest me in trying. But everyone is different, and as they say, different strokes for different folks Thanks for sharing RG Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
antlerman 17064 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 well...Thanks to all who commented and nominated...thanks.... I thought for a long time on this...and could have written more..but I am not always good with words.....especially when one hand is busy...... But I am sure I will post more here....as this truly is an incredible group of people..... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cleo Catra 178382 Report post Posted July 10, 2011 My urges now are more going bisexual...yup..I wrote it....bisexual.......why?...well I have tried so much...I want to try more...not really into the guy on guy alone.....at least not yet in my future...but more into the 3-sum interactions. I have been looking at allot of Tumblr these days...something to fuel my appetite and the porn on MMF bisex is driving me crazy this is soooooooooooooooo hot. I watch SO MUCH MMF bisex porn. Love it. I've had a couple of MMF threesomes and they were fun, but I would LOVE to be in one where the guys interacted too. DROOL! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nikki Thomas 23145 Report post Posted July 14, 2011 ... but you've done a fine job of it nonetheless. :icon_redface: Antlerman, thank you so much for your post. You have no idea how much it means to me to read this, and how honoured I feel to have helped you begin your journey into unknown territory. I do see a lot of first-timers, and when I hear that they've explored even further since our meeting, I'm absolutely overjoyed. I love what I do, and I'm so fortunate to be able to help other people open their minds. Avoiding student debt is a huge plus, and the main reason I started, but since then, I've found that I sometimes have a unique opportunity to educate people about subjects they're afraid to ask about. I'm able to help people look beyond black-and-white labels, and see the shades of grey that makes life so interesting. I'm able to help them realize that categories shouldn't stand in the way of pleasure, and I'm able to help people explore (and ultimately satisfy) their curiosity, and provide a unique experience which they may never have again. Being a sex worker isn't just about sex; sometimes, it's about being a teacher, a student, and a friend. I'm honoured to have played all of those roles for you, and thank you for playing those roles for me as well. :ThankYou: No one person can change the world, but sometimes, it just takes a few minutes to change an opinion, or a belief, or an assumption. If we truly want to make a difference, the best way to do it is by opening each other's minds, one at a time. Reading your post, and knowing how much courage it took you to write this, makes me feel so happy for you, and I congratulate you on having the guts to put this up for us to read. :bigclap: Thank you so much for the kind words, and I wish you all the best in your continued exploration of yourself, and your sexuality. :lovers: 10 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
antlerman 17064 Report post Posted July 15, 2011 Thank you Nikki, you again are a special lady and will always have a place in my heart.....and a wonderful feeling lower down :eheheheheeh I want to thank every one for nominating my thread and for those who posted some wonderful comments and massages. Thank you A special thanks for the PMs I got from some very special friends out there. I wish every one fun, excitement, pleasure and a safe journey through life....love.....and sex! Posted via Mobile Device Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Meg O'Ryan 266444 Report post Posted July 15, 2011 I have been involved in MMF threesomes where the M's were interactive. WOW!!! Love it! Antlerman...kuddos to you for being open enough and brave enough to recognize and accept these desires that are sometimes not so accepted. Now, I would like to explore the MTF scenario! 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Mutau 2516 Report post Posted July 15, 2011 Well done, my friend. Laying it on the line and being so introspective in such a public forum. :bigclap: But this CERBite community is about sharing and understanding in a wholesome and non-judgmental manner. Sexual exploration is never ending. As one door is closed behind you, others are illuminated and await your turning of the knob as you make your way through life. Best of wishes, antlerman, as you continue to explore and enjoy. Live with gusto! Mutau Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
NotchJohnson 214123 Report post Posted July 15, 2011 I have been involved in MMF threesomes where the M's were interactive. WOW!!! Love it! Antlerman...kuddos to you for being open enough and brave enough to recognize and accept these desires that are sometimes not so accepted. Now, I would like to explore the MTF scenario! I have been thinking about that scenario also but was looking for a lady friend first. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
