bcguy42 38594 Report post Posted July 16, 2011 We are going to skip the 90's and the turn of the century. The latter half of the 90s were spent cultivating a work-related severe anxiety disorder and severe depression so I haven't a clue what was going on out there. I was trying to cope with not being able to drive a car with someone else as a passenger - including family members. Not being able to use underground parking. No elevators. No crowds. Pretty fucked up. There is a gent who was my supervisor as I spiraled into all of this who was pleased to contribute to the problem. I have fantasies of next seeing him in an icy parking lot and forgetting where is the brake pedal. A-hole! During this whole panic disorder / depression thing, before I was diagnosed and given meds, I had to fly to the American Midwest to attend to my eldest son who had been in an accident. Crap! After a couple of years of feeding the squirrels and talking to the cat, plus the efforts of a truly bang-up psychiatrist and the miracle of modern drugs, I was able to leave my house and start working again. After a few years, through a series of fortuitous circumstances, I ended up semi-retired and having the time of my life as a limo driver. Sex? In the last ten years, once with my wife. With folk who are not on CERB and advertising massages in the Sun - a couple of times. Satisfying? Not really. Discovered CERB. Determined I had the money to investigate. Net result? I feel like I've died and gone to Heaven. The only downside is when I have an anxiety attack before visiting one of the fine ladies and take my meds to combat it my penis goes AWOL at the oddest times. When this has occurred I have assured the SP that the issue is not with her - she has done a wonderful job - it is just one of those things that comes with age. I have a mid-September appointment with my family doctor. We will discuss this penis coming and going phenomena and perhaps see if there is a pharmacological resolution. In the interim. I am reaching out to those SPs that I think might be able to work through the issue. (SPs that feel they are particularly good at dealing with this may feel free to PM) :) To the SPs I have visited I owe a debt of gratitude for their patience and understanding. This growing old shit ain't for sissies!!! And thus endeth the historical recounting as seen through mine eyes. I pray some few of you found it to be of minor interest. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest tr*****e Report post Posted July 16, 2011 Well, thank you for your insights, bcguy. I truly enjoy reading them. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Carley Chase 18985 Report post Posted July 16, 2011 The best of luck on your journey BCguy! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jafo105 39057 Report post Posted July 16, 2011 Thank you for sharing bcguy. I also have depression issues with similar life experiences. I can also relate to the performance anxiety with the ladies. We are probably not the only men on Cerb to have these similarities. You are not alone. I am sure there are Cerb SP's that have experience in these areas. Cheers, Jafo Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
antlerman 17064 Report post Posted July 17, 2011 nice opening up...real cool.... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
