VedaSloan 119179 Report post Posted April 9, 2009 So one of my biggest pet peeves is questions about my safety, in this line of work. A friend of mine sent me a link to a post about this particular subject, and I'm going to repost it, because I could have written it myself. Here's the original link: http://bornwhore.wordpress.com/2009/04/06/its-you-im-afraid-of/ ?Aren?t you afraid of running into your clients?? I hear some variation on ?clients are scary dangerous creeps, you are always at risk of victimization? from just about everyone. It?s a wholly inaccurate but nevertheless totally pervasive stereotype. Stereotypes about my safety and the (completely misperceived) risks of my job are my #1 pet peeve about being a sex worker. In fact this drives me so crazy that I haven?t been able to publish anything about it until now. When I first tried, I came up with a furious 8 page manifesto. I?m gonna make that rant into a zine and in the meantime, here is the more mellow version of it?now only three pages and minus the analysis of the discursive construction of risk. (sounds exciting though eh?) Meet My Client He is a walk in the park. I?m a woman providing a hands-on service so yes, they?re sometimes annoying or demanding but mostly I have fun with guys who are sweet and amusingly different than anyone else in my life. What?s so scary about giving a handjob to a 22 year old virgin while talking about the economic theories of Milton Friedman? (That was Jonathan, client #2 last Friday night). Clients are usually intimidated or at least polite and friendly. Some are outright worshipful. It can be a relief to spend time with someone who just hands their power over to me. I have something they want and can refuse to provide it. Perhaps unlike their wives or girlfriends, I set limits, refuse requests, make demands or sweetly manipulate the bill$ right out of them. Afraid of clients? Please. These dudes have just put down somewhere between $150-1000 in the hopes of having a nice time. At least they know that they can kiss their girlfriends. Whereas with us hos, ya never know. Some will break your heart with their beauty and tenderness, some will tell you to go fuck yourself for thinking you could touch their breasts. More than anything, clients desperately want you to sincerely like and desire them. For that and a host of other reasons, they are a bit (or very) afraid of us. I monitor and manage my client?s behaviour and I have no fear of them whatsoever. When I worked in Canada, I was definitely more nervous about doing outcalls where I couldn?t control or predict the environment. Because I knew sex workers who?d been assaulted, I was aware of the risk of violence?but I also knew it was a small risk. When I work in Canada again, I?ll likely do incalls as I know the risks are smaller. Here in Australia, I just don?t give it a second thought. I feel safe. I know that at some point I might have a physically coercive experience but my chances are much lower than if I were in nursing or home care?or married. But no matter how many times I say ?actually, clients are nice?, there remains this fundamental misunderstanding of who is a danger to me and other sex workers. It?s everyone but my clients that I fear. There is nothing intrinsically exploitative about sex when it?s paid and nothing intrinsically dangerous about our clients. I can?t believe I once bought into these bullshit myths! Good thing I started whoring anyways and found out for myself. Meet The Rest Of The World I come out to folks all the time. It?s one of the advantages of being a migrant worker?no one from home to deal with so more freedom. I love how coming out instantly and massively transforms the person?s ideas about sex workers?but it?s a seriously emotionally confronting experience. I couldn?t even begin to describe the shock people go through on finding out. Everything screeches to a halt. They don?t believe me, their eyes bug out and their mouths fall open, they can?t speak. It?s full on. The stronger their stereotypes about sex workers, the more intense the shock and disbelief. The funniest part is when I have to convince people. (?No, I?m serious. I really am a hooker.?) Then the questions come?or worse, sudden silence. I?ve had people walk away. So as far as ?risk? goes, my non sex-working friends, lovers, activist communities, colleagues, doctors, journalists, and strangers I?ve just come out to are the real danger to me. It?s cops, government, whore-hatin? abolitionist feminists and policy makers. It?s academics who think it appropriate to speak on our behalf, racist immigration officials who conduct raids to ?rescue? (aka arrest) Asian women only, children?s ?protection? agencies who take the kids of sex workers, public health officials who patronize us even though we practice safer sex than non-sex workers, it?s the dangerous benevolence of aid agencies like the UN who claim that migrant sex workers are incapable of consenting to sex work (!!!) My friends, family and lovers?you are the most important people to me. It?s precisely because I feel so connected to you, because I value our relationships so much that this is where the real risk lies for me. If a client kind of annoys me, I forget about it minutes later. But what you think, say and do matters to me. A client has never refused to share a spoon with me because I might be contagious-dirty-ho or asked me if I find my work disgusting or degrading. Friends have. A radio interview once took me days to recover from. I?m still a bit irritated by comments that lovers made nearly two years ago and if my dad doesn?t email me back quickly enough I worry that he?s avoiding me because he disapproves (I came out to him last year). Most of the time I feel amazingly supported and understood by the folks around me. I am so grateful that my friends get it (or want to get it) and I can relax and forget about how weird and alien I am to everyone else. How many hookers get to come out to their dad?! And queer sex workers?yesssss! I can come home and talk about work. I can make jokes about brothel ?towel art? or scoring money for extras. It?s part the luck of being queer and part that I have crafted this community around me. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
VedaSloan 119179 Report post Posted April 9, 2009 It?s You I?m Afraid Of Folks want to be supportive but sometimes they don?t get it and that?s OK. I don?t expect people to know everything?I?m still learning too! But you should know that when you don?t get it, it can really sting or, I?ll be honest, irritate the shit out of me. So it?s you that I sometimes protect myself from. It?s you who I will avoid or go silent with because I just don?t want to deal with how disappointed I feel. It?s you that I write for and to. It?s you that I want on my side. You are the ones who?s judgments, stereotypes, awkward silences and ill-informed questions I watch out for. It?s you I?m afraid of. On Being Safe I know you want me to be safe because you care about me. But when you say ?be safe?, who do you think we sex workers need to protect ourselves from? Were you thinking about all the times we?re tokenized, treated like a pariahs, refused visas, criminalized, researched like a bug, had others speak for us, caricatured in the media, asked totally offensive invasive questions, had our sanity and humanity questioned, our skills erased and ridiculed, risked arrest, deportation, eviction and (in my family) the threat of losing child custody? Were you thinking about the burden of secrecy from my family, or how many times I?ve tried to refute the same stereotypes over and over, and what it?s like to be told by a friend that I?m damaged? Is that what you meant? The Imaginary Victimized Sex Worker Everyone (in particular people who see themselves as sex work allies) wants to find the Imaginary Victimized Sex Worker. If it isn?t me, it must be street workers or the underage or the addicted or the so-called ?trafficked?. It isn?t. Think of the manufacturing or hospitality industry: some settings are good and respectful, some are shitty and abusive. But the concept of victims in need of rescue is never helpful. There are workers who might want better rights or conditions, on their own terms. The idea that sex workers are victims is the exactly how some of the worst abuses of sex worker rights?usually as perpetrated by that state?are justified and for that reason, talking about safety and danger is really loaded. Approach it thoughtfully. I?m guilty of this too. When a sex work organizer told me about the brothels where mainly Thai and Chinese women work for much discounted rates, I immediately responded negatively. ?oh, that sucks for them!?. ?No, actually they do fine because at those rates, more clients come in?. And in that instant I could see how my racism and whore-phobia intertwined. Here they were?the Imaginary Victimized Sex Workers! And of course, they?re not white or western! Do I think the Chinese woman who offers cheaper pedicures in my neighborhood is victimized? No. I think that patriarchal racism plays a role in her skills being less valued than the expensive white-owned salons but I don?t erase her agency in choosing the best work for herself. I?m a privileged worker. This does not make me the only worker who fully consents to my work and is not victimized by my clients. In capitalist economies we all work within the limits on our consent. High Risk Lifestyles of the Married and Cohabitating What is demonstrably more dangerous than sex work is intimate partnership. Domestic violence is the number one cause of death and permanent disability to Australian women. So when your sister tells you that she?s moving in with her boyfriend, do you tell her to ?be safe?? Would you refuse to have your friend?s wedding at your home given how you know domestic partnership to be a proven ?high-risk lifestyle?? Would you let me work out of your guest room? Would you drive me to a call? Would you be my security back up without assuming I?m about to go see an axe-murderer? Would you be comfortable if my clients knew where you lived? If not, why not? If I could do any of this with a new lover but not a client, why do you think that only money makes these men dangerous? I?d like to hear your explanation. I don?t love my clients but they?re fine. (Actually, the question of love is a complicated one but for now, we?ll keep it simple). They?re just like every other dude, except that they consider my time and sexual skill worth hundreds of dollars?making them in fact better than your average guy. Non sex workers sometimes insist that their brother/friend/teacher/boss would never be a client. They?re dreaming. That?s precisely who my clients are. So if you don?t fear them then you?ll understand why I don?t either. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SamanthaEvans 166766 Report post Posted April 9, 2009 Thanks for posting this, Erin. She hits the issues perfectly. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
YoungStud 468 Report post Posted April 10, 2009 Potentially dumb question Erin, but I'll ask it anyway - do you find what she has to say more interesting and accurate because she's white, middle class, gay, articulate when expressing herself in English, a feminist, has come out to her parents about sex work, etc. Or . . .?? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Annessa 22743 Report post Posted April 10, 2009 wow...these are all arguments I've raised in my head over the past week when deciding whether or not I'd come out to my parents and what Id say etc. she hits the head of the nail with a hammer bang-on so many times in that article. I'm going to have to copy/paste and forward this to some rather set-in-their-ways friends of mine thank you girl! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest C****** K***e Report post Posted April 10, 2009 Potentially dumb question Erin, but I'll ask it anyway - do you find what she has to say more interesting and accurate because she's white, middle class, gay, articulate when expressing herself in English, a feminist, has come out to her parents about sex work, etc. Or . . .?? Hmmm, well I am only 1, 2, and 4 of these things, but I still very much agree with what this lady has to say. Maybe it's a Canadian thing? Then again, maybe it's just a non-paranoid, rational girl thing.:-P Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
VedaSloan 119179 Report post Posted April 10, 2009 Potentially dumb question Erin, but I'll ask it anyway - do you find what she has to say more interesting and accurate because she's white, middle class, gay, articulate when expressing herself in English, a feminist, has come out to her parents about sex work, etc. Or . . .?? Well I can obviously relate because of some of those things, but the reason I like her post has nothing to do with that. She could be Bangladeshi, Chinese, or Thai for all I care and broke, but her points are still valid. And being a feminist doesn't make a difference to me, it's her stance within feminism that I like. There are many feminist abolitionists who would identify as feminist and hate my guts for what I do. The point is, it isn't clients who we as SP's should be afraid of. They are our brothers, husbands, friends, bosses, etc. It is the people who don't understand this work, who don't understand that it is work and that we take it very seriously (both in terms of our safety and health), that make problems for sex workers. Those are the people who think it's okay to continue to criminalize sex work even though it's proven that it doesn't help anyone, except perhaps the cops who get off on making life miserable for the street workers and the lucky ones in Spotsylvania who get to receive sexual favours to make a soliciting case. It's those people who make policies and laws affecting us and they refuse to even listen to what sex workers themselves have to say. Those are the people that scare me. That is all I was trying to point out with this post. I will agree that many feminists have views that are very western and white, ageist, and whore-phobic. I was hoping by posting this article to raise awareness that clients are not the issue. My safety is always in the back of my mind, but I've never been afraid of my clients, probably because I've always viewed them like anyone else I'm planning to bone, as a potential lover. It just so happens that in this case, I also get paid. Money doesn't suddenly make sex unsafe or wrong. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest C*****tte Report post Posted April 11, 2009 Money doesn't suddenly make sex unsafe or wrong. A couple of points of my own to add... 1- Many of us* we differentiate between clients and abusers. Abusers are those that do not respect the terms of the agreement of an appointment. They rape, steal, hit etc... Clients do not. Often the world at large does not see things this way. To them all workers are victims and all clients are abusers. This thinking makes us unsafe. 2 - What makes unsafe are these attitudes. Stigma leaves us in grey areas of the law which makes us prey for abusers. 3 - In and of itself sex work is not dangerous - it is the criminalization and the stigma which makes for dangerous working conditions. It is not the work itself. * sex workers Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
kih 458 Report post Posted April 11, 2009 Ladies, Good Stuff! Thanks for conveying your perspectives on such a controversal issue. I for one have been educated. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites