Goodbye!

[Irina Adler 5376]

This will be a short one, because, at this moment, I can't bring myself to write the many paragraphs I'd like in order to express how I feel.

 

Perhaps this says it best:

 

 

LOVE is enough: though the World be a-waning,

And the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,

Though the sky be too dark for dim eyes to discover

The gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,

Though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,

And this day draw a veil over all deeds pass'd over,

Yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter;

The void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter

These lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.

William Morris

 

 

As long as I feel so deeply attached to someone else, I have nothing to offer another. Love is not finite, but my time and attention is, and I feel I owe it all to him.

 

I hope never to awaken from this dream in which my solitude, though not erased, is suddenly made bearable by the selfless friendship of a kindred spirit.

 

Many thanks to all of you who have treated me with such kindness and respect. I leave with fond memories. To my colleagues who have risen to the level of lifelong friends: stay in touch! To those I've met or spoken to: all the best! To the community: stay strong, fight hard, it's a long battle against stigma and prejudice, but those of us who know the truth and can speak owe the effort to those that are less fortunate.

 

I depart in order to pursue a happiness greater than any I thought possible, a future as fulfilling as the dreams sold to me in childhood fairy tales. Life is long and arduous, thus I refuse to let any small spark of joy pass me by unexplored.

 

Farewell, with my greatest and warmest wishes that you too find such delight in life!

 

XOXO

 

Ksenia